Cat Yes/No? XD

Fic (Drabble -- who am I kidding?) Meme

Stolen from Sheena and Mell:

The first ten people to comment in this post get to request that I write a drabble of any pairing/character of their choosing. In return, they have to post this in their journal, regardless of their ability level. (If you absolutely can't write, maybe find a creative alternative?)

Additional TOG option: Leave me a prompt with your ship. All old fandoms apply. Also now writing for Glee and the Vampire Diaries.
In the Shadows [LK]

On Writing

 So, in case you didn’t know, I want to be an author. Like, a proper, published, hard-cover, book-signing author. But I have a problem:

Whenever I try to make writing the focus of my life...I can’t write.

I mean, it’s not that I’m incapable of stringing words together to form sentences that make stories that people actually seem to enjoy reading; it’s more that I can’t ever focus on my writing when that’s all I’ve got to focus on.

It’s like this:
  • When I was in school—high school and university—and I had other things taking up my time, I wrote prolifically. I wrote fanfiction and I wrote original works. I wrote thousands and thousands of words and some of it never, ever saw anything of the world outside my notebooks but I wrote.
  • Then university ended and my parents, wonderful people that they are, said that they weren’t going to force me to look for a job, I could have six months (it turned out to be a year) to just write. And all of a sudden, I couldn’t.
  • So, eventually, I started working. I’ve got a tedious job at a boring company where my responsibilities are absolutely mind-numbing. But guess what? I’m writing again. I’m not writing the same volume as before but I’m not bothered because anything is better than nothing.
  • Recently, as in ever since I started This Is Not Forever, I’ve found it easier and easier to put things on paper and to actually work my ideas into prose. I’ve written 3⅓ chapters of TINF, four oneshots for the Puck/Rachel meme and I have at least three more in the works. I haven’t produced this much since 2008, my second year in university.
  • So I’ve reached a conclusion and you probably already know what it is. I’m still going to tell you anyway: Writing is my escape.

Writing simply can’t be a job for me. Once it becomes a job, I can’t do it. If it’s an obligation, my whole being just seems to rebel. It doesn’t even have to do with whether or not I find writing fun. I always find writing fun. I love to write. I just can’t ever think of it as something I have to do.

Writing is my guilty pleasure. I don’t know when I conditioned myself to be this way. No one has ever tried to stop me from writing. I just don’t feel right when people expect me to produce something. I don’t hide to write, I just write that much better when it’s my distraction rather than my focus.

I don’t know what this means for my ambitions to become an author. I just know that this is the way I am.


  • In regard to fanfiction—I think that’s my guiltiest pleasure of them all. Not only am I writing but I’m writing something that I know will never be anything more than it is. No one can ever expect anything from it. And yes, as a teenager, my parents weren’t too pleased with the whole concept of me spending time on fanfiction. They’ve always been supporters of me writing my own stories. They’ve come to tolerate my fanfiction habit but they’re always a little disappointed when I say I’m writing and then clarify by saying, “It’s a fanfic.”
  • Furthermore, I think I may be giving the impression that expectations turn me off writing. They don’t. I love knowing that people want to read my stuff. Like, for instance, whenever I put dibs on a prompt (or Mell forces one of my own on me), I’m absolutely eager to write it. I like knowing that I’m definitely going to have a readership and I love reviews and feedback. So it’s not about people’s expectations. My problem stems from me and my own attitudes towards what I do.
  • Final clarification: I don’t want to have to keep my writing on the fringes of my life but it’s beginning to look like that’s the only way I’ll ever be able to produce anything. I really, really wish it wasn’t like this. I don’t want to have to fit being author in around being whatever else I waste time as. I want it to be identity rather than my alias. (Does that even make sense?)
Cat Yes/No? XD


So, Glee's 3rd album came out. Most of the tracks have already aired and we all knew there was going to be some Gaga on there (there is, it's awesome). But then....

Then there was Mark Salling. Singing "Loser" by Beck. Fucking leading the chorus at least (because I swear I heard Artie in there too).


I have no words for my feelings on this.

♥ !

(Also, what is this "Beth" track? I have the sneaking suspicion that this has something to do with Quinn's baby but then again, I think the songs are listed in episode order so it probably has nothing to do with that cuz Quinn isn't ready to give birth yet, is she?)

Cat Yes/No? XD

Aliya Bulkan (August 26, 1986 - November 07, 2009)

I met Aliya when I was in my first year of 6th form. We had a lot in common and we just different enough to avoid too much conflict. We lost touch when she left for university at the end of that year. I've been looking for her on Facebook, Twitter and everywhere else for the past three years. Today was the first time I'd heard anything about her since then.

The news wasn't—isn’t—good.

No one knows why yet but around 1:00 p.m. this afternoon, she committed suicide by jumping over the edge of the Kaieteur Falls in our native Guyana.

The captain of the airplane said, "She ran screaming at the top of her lungs towards the falls and jumped off." I’m shocked because this was the absolute last thing I expected to hear about her. She was beautiful, so brilliant and so full of potential. I mean this; I’m not just saying it because she’s dead. She was an awesome person when I knew her. I don’t know what happened but I’m so, so sorry it did. All I can think is: What would drive her to do this?

Although, at least, she got to fly a while. It was a majestic death but an utter and incomprehensible tragedy.

Rest in peace, Aliya.

4EVER [Blch]

RE: Bleach Chapter #353

I was going to freak out about the ending. I'll admit it; my initial reaction was, "What the fuck was that?"

...But then I read this post and I understood. ^-^

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RE: Real Life
Am in London. Have taken pictures. Am hacking unsecured wireless network to post to LJ. Will update you all properly in a few weeks. xx

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